Wow 5 Weeks to go...WHAT!!!!

Wow...so it has been an amazing experience so far and I apologize for not posting as often as I should...so let's see what's been going on.
1. Month 1 & 2 went great lost 30lbs! (felt strong and proud)
2. Month 3 & 4 lost 5lbs (started getting frustrated w/myself and slipped a bit)
3. Month 5 just weighed lost 2lbs ( not mad at myself anymore took a look at what I need to change and am ready for month 6)

What does any of this tell me? I could look at it two ways.....I could beat myself up and say "wow look how good you did in month 1&2 ..and then I just screwed up month 3-5 I am such a loser...I am always going to be FAT !!!" or be kind to myself and say " Wow I have lost 37lbs...I can not wait to see where I am a year from now....and I know if I concentrate on tracking my food and exercise ...like I did in month 1&2 ...I will continue to do better the next month"
Well I am choosing to live by this second statement...but just to be clear the first statement I did feel and I was living there for the last couple of months...hmm...was that negativity serving me well..? absolutely not...what serves me is the belief and faith that if I just trust in myself to take the best care of me and do what is positive and leave or change the negative..I will be on my way to the best me....my journey will not end when this contest ends...it will not end until the day my last breath is drawn on earth...so I want to make sure that I enjoy this journey and that life is something I create not just something I live.
Love to you and to me!
Create what you want in this world...